boredom..

So how many of you would love to have the opportunity to sit at home everyday, with no plans, an open schedule, and no responsibilities? As glamorous as it may sound, it is all but..trust me.  I have watched every tv show TLC, MTV, and TBS has ever made. Throughout my day, my biggest "to do" is to take a shower, I'm not even kidding.  Being a teacher your whole day is basically planned and accounted for and your lucky to get in any relaxation before hitting the sheets and getting right back "to the grind." So you can imagine how much of an adjustment for me this no work thing has been.  Before I got sick, I would go literally ALL day long-from 5:15 in the morning when I woke up, to 10 pm at night when I could finally crawl into bed and fall asleep before the dust even settled.  I had so much going on, a full time job, meetings, working on my masters, going to the gym everyday, that I was beyond busy so I thought that not working for a while would give me a chance to 1-obviously get better, and 2- to sort of slow down, rest, and enjoy myself with some "free time."  Well..it's now March and I don't know how much more "free time" I can stand. I desperately WANT to go back to work (Do you hear me Dr. Turner!!) I NEED to go back to work, for my own sanity!

My schedule as of late is so open, that preschool children have more going on in a day than I do. I still have my typical doctors appointments that I go to.  And my parents and Chad are always letting me do all their errands that need to be taken care of, but it still doesn't compare to that of a full time job.  I see other people that complain day in and day out about work and I just want to slap them in the face and scream, "ARE YOU SERIOUS?" Be glad that you are ABLE to work and HAVE a job! So much idle time just seems to make me feel blah. I see all my friends and family with jobs or school and it seems that everybody has so much going on, and then here I am, with nothing going on day in and day out and it almost makes me feel as though my days are going to waste. I don't really feel as though my days are productive since I technically don't do anything.  I even have trouble falling asleep at night because I guess I'm just not tired.

I've talked with my doctor and he's agreed to let me TRY to go back to teaching in August (that's if I can find a job) and in all honesty, it can't get here fast enough.  I think I will fill alot better mentally and emotionally once I can get back into a routine and actually feel as though I'm doing something with myself everyday. Okay, enough negativity for one night (i just felt as though I had to get that out there, you know-it makes you feel better when you express things!)

On a happier note, my sunglasses are on their way to me! Yes! I got the email today saying they had been shipped out and should be here in a few days! I also did some online shopping the other night (another result of my boredom) and ordered some really cute summer dresses.  I'll be super excited when they get here!

Also, we're going to the beach this weekend and I definitely could use a trip away for a day (for obvious reasons!)  It'll be great! We're planning on leaving early Saturday to head down to Myrtle Beach.  Chad has a couple places he wants to go, and of course I want to go do some shopping at the outlets! I think one of Chads friends may go with us so it should prove to be a fun trip! Also, my parents will be home from Daytona late Saturday night so it will be good to see them.  I've talked with them each day and they seem to be having a good time!

Lastly, tomorrow I get to babysit the 3 cutest kids in the entire world, Emma Grace, and the twins-Khloe and River.  I absolutely love them to pieces and can't wait to see them.  I'm super glad Kristin called me today about babysitting since her daycare is closed tomorrow, and it will also give me something to do! Plus-I enjoy kids and these 3 are just the best. Anyways, maybe tomorrow I'll have some cute stories to post about the kids-until then, have a great night!
Sutton